i cried today.. (go back »)

woahh.. mkei i didnt expect that i would cry today/tonight/earlier. well.. coz i was reading the 2nd chapter of the purpose driven life and it was talking about how im not an accident and that God chose who my parents are and everything in my life and all the challenges that ive gone through is just part of the plan to shape who i am. that really hit me.. i think i maybe i am supposed to be hurting like this. and that i'm probably most likely not the only one who hurts like this. i'd quote the poem in there right now but im too lazy to get up. i'll do it tomorrow or something. well speaking of tomorrow.. i have to wake up early to come with my grandpa to pick up tito raffy. arrghh.. i have to share my room. actually he gets my room. but well, its only for a day. so what am i to lose.

my day was really tiring today. but really i basically did only 3 things. went to the clinic with my aunt, work out, computer. so yea i woke up.. well my aunt woke me up. and i hurried to get ready to come with her to the clinic. they both had appointments. and these women thought that shane was my own baby.! haha.. i was all wtf?! in my head. lol it was kinda funny though. then we went home around 5ish and i got dressed to go to the gym. and nadine was there. so yea i went to the gym and worked out with her and stuff. then got home and cleaned up a little and ate. oh yea i ate a little breakfast too. which was like 1/4 of a cupcake, a nutrition cereal bar, ahm.. and half toast. hm? yea dinner was good. it was fish fillet and chicken desarsa. and i had bread too. then i had icecream with some crushed cookies and cereal in it. lol haha.. it made me guilty on a count of i almost weigh 130 f*cking pounds right now.

well. mkei.. that was about it. thats all i did. i just used the computer all day. oh yea we watched a documentary movie cloverfield today too. it was pretty cool ;] and i'm really puyat na right now. i am lacking so much sleep right now its ridiculous. and whats even more ridiculous is how big and deep my eyebags are right now. yea i know its my fault but still!? i hate my eyebags. arggh. damnit.! its 3:15 am. i think i should sleep soon.

thats it.

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