dear me.. [♥]

THiS HAS BEEN THE BEST DAY i'VE HAD SO FAR ;]]

i hung with old friends from echo lake. and my childhood best friend CHRiSTiAN ELiZABETH MASON who still happens to be one of my best friends ;] i love her.

i caught up with dolores for a bit. and ALLEN JUNG, KJELL HENDRiCKS, & TOVAR 'HOTTiE' SANCHEZ lol.

it was good catching up with them. ;] chichis still da same. and dats what i love bout her. we had so much memories together. i just remembered a whole bunch because of her ;]]

we'll see eachother nxt week.

tovar asked me to hang out!!! ;]

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i only have a few weeks left here. and honestly i'm soo disappointed in myself. because of all the time that i've had.. nothings happened. i've actually gained more weight. but i need to stop telling myself that i need to diet and really just do it.. God help me.

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i h8 how i work out everyday but it seems like its doing no good. wtf? all this hard work for nothing? i mean i can blame myself but still!?! i barely eat what i want with the amount i want anymore. what else is there to do make myself vomit?? omg.. help me Lord. please. i h8 being this way. im never satisfied with myself. even though thats what i tell people. i gained 5 effin pounds! i prayed already.. i hope that works.

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im getting really lazy. i havnt written on this thing for soo long. but i havnt really done anything new. just cleaned my room and closet. and i feel really horrible about being fat. arrgghh.. i just cant stop eating for some messed up reason. damnit.

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today i.. [im kinda lazy right now.]

woke up and made the bed.

ate breakfast.

showered.

went with papa to pick vanessa up and happened to think of calling jorge.

then jorge picked up and they happened to be at school.

so i hung out with them after we [papa me and nessa] ate at wendys.

i hung with jorge, &novi. i talked with leonne, frank, ulisis, daylen, and roseanne.

worked out

ate dinner

talked with frank for the longest time.

found out bout rosey talking stuff bout me.

got pissed

talked to chakki on ym and cute on ym txt.

told them about that person being rude to me on fs.

yea that was about it. i still have to read the daily purpose driven thing. so.. i gotta go! i really need to motivate myself more with going to sleep early and DiETiNG!! omfg.

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